Still Thinking

Here's the stuff that went in and out of my head from 8pm to 9pm on 3rd may. 

8pm:  im on my way home from office, on my bike...2 stroke...servicing overdue...somehow draggin itself and me along. Have my mp3 player on. The song is Joe Purdy-Cant get it right. Usually every song reminds me of sumthing...or atleast i relate to it in some way...but this one doesnt stir nething in me (thank god! i can do without the thinking).

8.05: far away blues-again by joe purdy... i switch to the next while balancing my bike on my 5 feet 1 inch body. Im trying hard really hard not to think. Not to think of my ex-bf. Ya well..we broke up after goin around for 3 yrs...long story and thats another bolg. im gonna jump to another thought in 5 4 3 2 1.

8.07: why was i late from work today...8 pm is nearly 12 hrs...is it cuz there was a lot of work or the lunch break went on for two long? cuz wtever the reason i must do sumthing bout it...i pass a railway track...awww its a goods train...neways atleast its goin sumwhere...id love to travel...far far away...ok no...jus travel...im not turning into an escapist...

8:10: joe purdy-waiting on sumthing good...thats the song...i dono wt the lyrics are neways...i like it...lately ive been listening to songs that don’t remind me of my ex-bf and yet I like… and I thought of mentioning this cuz I had startede listeing to really crappy songs so that I don’t have to listen to all those songs on my playlist that reminded me of us or sumthing we did or wtever…I honestly don’t remember wt good that was supposed to do…but in my endeavor to avoid all those songs I discovered some pretty good music…pls don’t tell me it’s a break up thing…

8.15: why are the roads so deserted today…is it a holiday or the traffic jus decided to give me break for a change…neways…it feels a liil creepy…I miss traffic…

8:17: ahhh…there it is traffic…the one that gives out enuf smoke to choke a whole city…the one that’s full of idiots who don’t know how to drive…the one that I try to avoid in the morning when I'm late for work…there it is…I feel better already…secure even…wt twisted world I live in…

8:20: maroon 5-harder to breathe…I'm even singin this one…the uncle who jus passed me by gave a me a weird look…”when it gets cold outside and I got nobody to love”…that’s the part I'm singin…

hey wait uncle…I'm not that sad and pathetic….its jus a song…really…am I that sad and pathetic…no pls no…that would be my ex-bf…god I hope not…its jus a song… forget it…

8:30 hella good-no doubt….ya this one I like…definitely does not remind me of my ex-bf…that it does not remind me of my ex-bf reminds me that I'm trying too hard to forget…wt exactly do I not want to remember…wait stop right there…lets not open that door…it doesn’t matter neways…there’s no future there…jus sing the song…or switch or sumthing…

8:40 On a day like today: bryan adams...its night....switch...road trippin'-red hot chilli peppers....aah....lets go get lost....i feel like having a burger...nows the time the angel and devil inside me r gonna sit on my shoulders and try to convince me...

angel: no dont...u r gaining too much weight neways.

devil: its jus a harmless burger...

angel: forget the taste...think of the guilt...

devil: guilt shmilt...i say eat...think of the cheese and the mayonnaise...

angel: im sure mum's prepared sumthing really good n u dont need junk food....

stop... there's burger express....1 veg burger with extra mayonnaise...yep devil wins...not every time though...

8:50 aah...guilt...why cant it take a vacation or let me get one..."returm to innocence"-enigma....when will i stop liking this song...its in all my playlists...

9:00 aah....there's me burger...all hot n dripping with mayonnaise...ahhh...my burger...now i can stop thinking....