Still Thinking

This year has been a pretty eventful yr so far. Well there have been unexpectedly good and bad events. And no I don’t know whether there has been more good stuff than bad. It’s jus that right now…life is pretty calm and quiet and weird. Like all the stressful things have had enough of me and found someone to bother. And that’s fine, except now I have a lot of meaningless and useless crap going in and out of my head. And I was jus so used to fighting and over coming obstacles that it feels weird that I no longer have to fight. Or I'm not looking hard enough, which is true. I'm not chanting as much as I should or as much as I used to.
Not like I don’t have anything to do. Maybe I should make a list of all the things that I still need to improve and keep all these things as my target for chanting. Well here it goes then. I am:
1. Lazy
2. Overweight (I don’t like using the word fat)
3. Obsessive
4. Aimless
5. Over Sensitive (this one really hurts)
6. Indecisive
7. Talkative…Jump the gun

I think that’s it for now. Unlike most of the time, somehow this list does not make me like shit about myself. Now why is that? Why am I abnormally normal?
Anu aunty asked me if I can feel any undercurrents but I'm jus not sure, I don’t think there are any undercurrents. This has got to mean sumthing…oh look I'm obsessing again.